Well, this year I think it’s supposed to be a big year for me…at least that’s what the magazines, media, and friends say. I’m turning the big 3-0! Should I be having a mid-life crisis?! Reflecting on the last 30 years of my life?! Getting a complete makeover?! Going out and doing something totally wild and unlike me?! Retreat to the mountains and “discover” who I really am?! It actually makes me anxious thinking about turning 30, not so much because of the age or the number but other factors. Media plays a big part, I feel like I should do something completely different, escaping from reality to “discover” myself seems cool or doing something crazy seems great too. Makeover, who doesn’t love a makeover?! Thinking about the makeover part is what makes me anxious.
- My husband loves and adores me no matter how I look-literally!
- My husband is the most patient and considerate man on Earth-he was my cane, guide-husband, chauffeur, book reader (good thing for that sexy voice), cook and the one that brought me back to God’s love daily!
- I have really supportive family and friends who called, emailed, texted, and visited during this time!
- I have to be confident in who I am despite how I look…and still show up to a pseudo high school reunion even though I wanted to hide!
- I can and did get a job despite how I felt I looked and how I talked (the Bells Palsy made my speech kinda slurred and I think I spit a little while talking too) during an interview!
- There are more people out there struggling with the same thing as me even though I never noticed before (yup, people I had interacted with before but never knew they had struggled with Bells Palsy) and became great support!
- Made me focus on other areas of my life that I felt proud of or happy about!
- God thinks I am precious no matter how I feel about myself!
What God Wanted Me To Learn:
Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as elaborate hairstyles and the wearing of gold jewelry or fine clothes. Rather, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. ~ 1Peter 3: 3-5
Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised. ~ Proverbs 31: 30